my 15 minutes of fame!

i got featured! wo0t! thanks to brokenhallelujah for the screencap, she's the one directly underneath me (i actully have a pair of her slippies & they are fantastic!) & they did sell so being featured is apparently a great way to suck people into your store to look around...

i'm considering moving towards body wash; i haven't decided if i've found a recipe yet i would be happy to sell...still up in the air, as well as what kind of container i would put it in, etc..

but i can't seem to recall just when you came along...

it's sunday night; it feels to me like this weekend went by way too fast. i suppose it's because i had to work yesterday & because now my weekends are thrown all off track now.

looking for an apartment; i'm freaked out i'm not going to be able to afford one on my own but it looks as though i've no choice now. my future looks like it's going to be locked in one horrific looping pattern. should be nice...wish it were different.

looking for star trek documentaries right now; stuf to watch when i have to sleep alone i suppose. watching one on the borg which isn't the one i wanted; i wanted one riker was narrating, i wish i could remember the name of it.

the borg.

i bought morte d'arthur yesterday, & the mabinogion. i hope it brings rhiannon to light a bit; i can understand her & what she did but don't know if i would have the strength to do it myself. i find it so hard to think i wouldn't rail against the futility of confessing to a crime i never committed. i don't know if i could do it, myself. she is an inspiration of kindness

ye rat bastard...

so i was looking for the remote in the living room this morning while eric was at the gym & somehow that turned into cleaning the entire kitchen, making a pitcher of iced blueberry tea & finishing a couple orders.

phew.

valentine's day turned out alright after all - there are just some times when he is completely able to sit down & tell me things that make me feel so much better. & things i have always known that get reinforced. (& i think he liked his present; he's already spent it=P)

we went to quizzno's today - my first time there. i got this amazing beef sandwich with barbque sauce on it....sooooo good. i love cheese. i love steak. i love barbque. yum. i could eat another one.


my federal return is supposed to be deposited tomorrow; i'm sincerely hoping it is, because then i can get several bill collecters off my ass & away from my phone. which means i won't have to keep it on silent all the time, hahaha. since they tend to call more than 5 times a day i don't even bother turning it on half the time.

tonight we're going to randi & franks for dinner so eric can set up randi's computer - but my other plans for the evening are to come up with something else i can make & list on etsy. i suppose i could make candy but i think all my molds are at home. which reminds me to check the listings again for studios/efficiencies. sometimes i think i am going to hate it, sometimes i think i will like it better, living by myself. i don't own any furniture so i guess it's good that's all i can afford. & what if i can't even afford that? i'm going to have to come up with a budget or something...bah.

effing figures.


it never fails.

beware of fainting fits; beware of swoons. run mad as often as you choose...

but do not faint.


i have several large orders to fill tonight; most bath fizzies, etc. put together a few sets...we'll see what happens, & then we're supposed to be getting a large storm as well. i could definitely wish for a snow day but like i said in a previous post: i always get excited & then nothing happens. so i am not planning on a snow day. that would be too much fun.


so i have ordered pizza to fill the last few hours of work, & will finish the scholarships & a few filing projects i have left. it's pretty much impossible to get anything done fully here because i am always interupted to cover a break, etc. i have no idea what conditions the filing cabinets are in & i'm kind of leary to look.

& this great blue world of ours seems a house of leaves

moments before the wind...


i just got a masssssive order in which is cool. not cool that i don't have any of my oils with me. cool that people actually like my stuff. not cool that it's so cold i can't feel my toes. i'm serisouly looking forward to my bath, which is in order shortly.

as of right now, i am watching star trek on youtube (damn you eric for getting me addicted) & waiting for my food. staring at my evening primrose oil & waiting for mice to thaw so i can feed colby. also am wondering if i should feed him in a bucket & clean his cage while he's eating or feed him & clean his cage another day. he's much more confortable in his cage when he eats, but when he was only a few weeks old i used to feed him in a bucket to get him used to me. poor little guy. he's probably starving & the dang things take forever to thaw out.


feeling pms coming on. wondering why i ever let myself get excited about things when i know they won't pan out. o always always get excited thinking i will have one good thing, like how wednesday is valentine's day. i've never had a valentine's day that went well. everyone always either "forgets" or doesn't bother.

man thinks they are each alone in this world...

...but they are not...



sometimes i think about picking up & just moving away & not telling anyone. just diappearing away & moving someplace where nobody has ever heard of me & won't know anything about where i come from. i wonder, would that really be so lonely? would it be so terrible to be completely anonymous? it's not as though anyone knows me anyways...



supplies should be coming today. fedex sucks totally so much i had to get everything delivered to work so i hope everything comes soon. new jars, yay! new labels, yay! maybe i can actually make things & post new stuff, finally. i was supposed to get everything on saturday & here it is wednesday so i am a little pissed off it's taken this long. meeeeeehhhh.

back to work. everyone here is so tense. it's starting to make me wish i worked alone, or at home or something. too bad my etsy business can't take off enough so i can just work at home. how cool would that be?